Organized me?

Try for a change.

DG Weekly Planner ❤

Finally it's done I can now proceed to other things like a lesson planner for one whole month, super effort to Photoshop,  it takes me almost quarter part of the day :) Whew.

Books with Love ♥

Books! I love lavishing my daughter with books and that's something I would love other children to have as well! I'm aware that many parents especially here in our barrio doesn't fully understand the value of reading because they themselves wouldn't even bother to open a book, there's the TV, there's the internet who needs books nowadays? I want to break this cycle even in the smallest possible scale. Here in our third world nation, libraries outside school are rarities if they exist, most are just decrepit rooms wherein books means encyclopedias, dictionaries, textbooks and bible story series. Reading is magic, it widens our horizons, it captivates imagination! Imagination is a beautiful beautiful thing, for me it's almost synonymous with genius. It is one thing I would like to impart on my child and other children. And this is only the beginning... I want to turn it into my advocacy... decent libraries for every town!

So here's what I have to do first.
1. Do legwork, discuss it with government agencies or NGO's
2. Solicit donations.
3. Set distribution date, venue, and other additional activities.
4. Send invites, ads, coordinate with barangay officials and other agencies. 

Best of luck to me. I hope the passion will keep burning in my heart!♥

Community service is not just for law-breakers

Excited for my CWTS2 course this term! Strange but of all the courses I've taken this is the one I'm looking forward the most. Mind you, I'm such a beggar-snob or an anti-beggar,the better term I suppose. Perhaps because I have something in mind that I believe would truly help other human beings. Because I'm far from the metro I decided to so the self-initiated track, I'm leaning towards a teaching mission but the whole details I haven't decided or worked on yet.

Nevertheless, I know that this is not a completely selfless endeavor I'm going to tread. I'm aware that percentage of the excitement I'm feeling is based on my egoistic needs to feel significant, to feel useful, to make a difference. This doesn't make it less worthy. In fact, I believe egotism moves history forward.

#1 Destinylittleprojects

At first, we went to the municipal library to familiarize her with a library and of course, to read. To my dismay there's only two shelf worth of books mostly encyclopedias and bible story series. We scanned some of the books, view the Encyclopedia photos of mostly amphibians, reptiles, and fish.Our public library are in dire need of attention and donations. I promised myself, if Destiny's outgrown books will be given to this library. But are our townspeople really coming to this library to read? I scanned the log book and visitors are mostly from the nearby public highschool doing research.

Second, we did some weaving at home.

Materials: 

Scissors

2 or more sheets of color bond paper of different colors

The weaved paper later became a skirt, shreds became bracelet, pambugaw ng langaw, magic wand. Imagination is surely the limit.

Launching Destiny's Little Projects

I decided to have 100 Little Projects for my daughter and I's bonding educational activities. This will help me remind myself how I'm faring coz I tend to be ningas kugon and all that.

I've been thinking about homeschooling her for her kindergarten and nursery age but I'm not sure if I'll be able to expand myself that much to produce something sufficient(at least) for her education. What I know is she's painfully shy now and I don't think I'm someone who can fill up the socialization gap in a homeschooling setting, I'm not a social butterfly either.

Surely there are remedies, extra curricular activities are abound outside school systems except we're in a less-civilized place called the province. I really wish I have like-minded parents in our area for support system.

Good thing, I have ample time to think all about these.

Excited for this business venture in my head, coz this is one thing I'm passionate about and my daughter will greatly benefit.

I wish there's a fiber in my body that says I'm happy that will make this whole goddamn fight easier!

Fun day for me as a mommy and a photographer ♥

During the days I'm out of touch with my daughter I feel out of touch with reality, with myself. Like this very day :(

Plan

Golden rules

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So many things still unaccomplished

Like homeschooling my little one. Expanding my business line. The long-deserved facial, reading at least one  of the novels I bought a month ago.

Procrastination at its finest.

So many business ideas in mind but they're just "small" ideas I don't know what to make of. I guess I don't have that business savviness that some people have. That's where I'm jealous of the Chinese(aside from their ability to bully a poor helpless coutry).

Sorry naman.

Ang tindi ng obssession mo sakin. Sorry, siguro at one point I have broken your spirit. Sige i-add mo lang ng i-add sila kahit di ka nila kilala.

Ganyan talaga e, walang basagan ng happiness :))

I'm having panic attacks whenever its time for Georgina to go to school. OA nerves.
She's still having separation anxiety. Crying all over the place whenever I leave hear in the classroom. What to do? I hope today it gets better.

Officially I have a student number again.

Feeling great paying my own matriculation fee. Hope mapanindigan ko haha.

People would take it as insanity and stupidity combo

But that's just them

For me you're the road where sanity and insanity converged

Where I'm both wise and stupid.

I love you. Like how a wife and a mistress love combined.

You're my chaos and my order.

You're my pleasure and my pain.

You're one ugly beautiful thing.

We are.

Me looking outward:

Kawawa ka naman. Para kang busabos, namamalimos ng kapirasong atensyon at pagmamahal.

Me looking inward:

Mas kawawa ka. You take pleasure in oppressing someone. And yet asan ka ngayon? Do you feel safe and comfortable? Where does this take you?

Typhoon Self-Destruct

I created this tears from a moment of brass, and weakness,
small liquid drops that becomes clouds of newly dicovered emotions and evil,
cruelty,
in me.

Now it becomes a hailstorm,
of fear and obscurity,

seeing it's just a matter of when,
everything's just gonna fall down on me.